Young and Complicated

I catch myself dreaming for a different life. Where everything comes easily, but then I look at my sister. Everything is handed to her and she’s a stuck-up bitchy whore. I don’t want to change one damn thing about myself. I’m happy. And, proud to say I am the only one in my family medication-free. I think it’s because I enjoy the little things in life.

How can an individual feel anything towards another after one evening spent? Beats me, but it does happen. Iungracefullyfell for a man’s charm after being with him forONE FUCKING NIGHT.Maybe it was his smile, or his wonderful personality. Or maybe it was his ability to articulate a sentence using proper speech. He’s intelligent; that’s for sure. Making me feel liek the dumb blonde he assumed I’d be.

Slowly but surely my thoughts have over-whelmed my conscious being resulted n them being spilled onto paper. What does my brain consist of that has such a level of importance that it must be recorded? Nothing. None of which I write contains any significance. I do not hold the location of D.B. Cooper’s treasure, nor the Fountain of Youth. But; instead a look into what my mind retains. The thoughts of internal and external conflicts. The thoughts of love and lust. The thoughts of the world and the people in it.

All I want is the taste your lips allow..

I’ve went out with him once. ONE FUCKIN’ TIME… I’m hooked. He’s perfect. The distance sucks, and is about to suck even more; I’m moving. I thought closer to him. Nope. State’s away.

I accidently sent him a text that was meant for another Jason in my phone (who’s a straight flamer) about the trip we’re taking in June to Texas. Well, Jason (Not the Flamer) got jealous. It was so cute. And, made me feel like he actually cared for me. I wasn’t just a piece of ass to him.

I keep going out on all these different dates with different men, and yet; always end up thinking about this guy.

To top it off, this guy, Jason, TOOK MY SISTER’S VIRGINITY.

WTF. -.-

BUUUUT. he’s so perfect..

There’s ALWAYS that one girl that goes after any guy she’s seen you’ve associated with..

FUCKIN’ LEXI MARTIN I HATE YOU, YOU DUMB BITCH.

With that being said;

If she went after Jason, I would probably hit her.

in the face.

with a fuckin’ semi.

<3

I’ve been talking to this John guy for awhile and always tried to set a date with him, but each time I went to go see him something would happen, weither it be I get pulled over or my starter in my car goes out.

Well, finally it all works out! I met up with him and a few of his friends, Haylee, Joe, and Alan (they end up being great friends.)

We decide we’re going to go back roadin’. You know, drinking and two-stepping at every bridge late at night. I start off in the back seat with John, Lainey and Lauren. (which I thought it was kinda strange that John invited two other girls, I thought I was his girl that night..) Well, by the end fo the night I move up front with Haylee and Alan. Joe gets in back. Joe ends up with Lauren. I leave John to be with Lainey since he had to invite her.

When we get back to Joe’s house I get out to say by to John and let him know I’m leaving, he thens picks me up and carries me into the house, kissing me.

Let’s just say Lainey wasn’t very happy and left.

OH! Before I forget, John works for an international company, so he leaves the next day. Last time I’ll see him for eight months.

We end up falling asleep and I leave in the morning. Thinking that was the first and the last time I’ll see John for months.

Something in his plans didn’t work, so he gets to stay another night.

Haylee, Alan, and a new friend, Spencer and I go to the Tracey Lawerence concert (John wanted to stay home and spend time with his mom, he is having a bonfire after we get back). This Spencer guy grabs my attention. He’s covered in tattoos. Funny. Just adorable.

I’m thinkingshiiit, he’s john’s friend.

Well, who fucking cares! John ends up just looking at me as a piece of ass anyways. Spencer then started hitting me up.

Looks like I have a new guy in my cards. c:

On another night, going on a date with Jason tonight!

Well, I got my wish.

I found a freakin’ amazing guy.

Of course when you find that perfect guy there comes downfalls…

His name is Jason, mom calls him Spider-Legs.

He is almost everything on my list. He plays the piano. Naked I might add! (That’s a completely different blog.)

He is all I wished for. Now here comes the downfalls…

He may move. He lives a bit away. Aaaand, for the big one. He’s my sister’s ex.

Weird, I know.

I go out on a lot of dates; with that being said I met a lot of different and strange men.

I could never find someone I clicked with. (The one I did ended up having a girlfriend.)

I just wish I could find that perfectguy. Every girl has one! They have their own list; and here’s mine.

• Has to look good in skinny jeans
• Play either guitar or piano
• Into beautiful music
• Unique
• Potential
• A sense of decor
• A love for animals
• Honesty
• Loyalty
• Recognizes what they have in front of them
• Wants to travel the world
• Looks at things from a different point of view
• Inspirational to me
• Has to have the potential to be a great father

Is this man so hard to find?

Well, this is my first blog/post.

I guess I could start off by telling you a little bit about me and why I decided to start blogging.

I’m Brittany, I’m 16, and I live in the small town of Bartlesville, Oklahoma.

I guess I decided to write my personal thoughts, feelings, and stories on a public website because I have things to say, to record.

I would say I’m a normal girl. The adventures I go on and the people I meet.. Not so much.

I mainly want this blog to include my thoughts, feelings, adventures, and my relationships. (Wether it be family, friends, or intimate others.)